Now that I make my schedule, one would think I would have more time but some reason there is less. And so this year I am behind, and after poring over layouts and templates from Shutterfly, Tiny Prints, Pear Greetings–there are too many to list–I finally choose a design and a message for my Christmas card mailing.
With fresh eyes, I look over the proof. I am in every photo, sometimes alone, sometimes with a loved one, or a mountain. There is one of Finn asleep on the chaise lounge. I bite back the embarrassment, the shame, I swallow and embrace the pride. I remind myself that my accomplishments are my own. There is no external validation needed from relatives, from spouses, children or grandchildren. I am enough; my joy is enough.
“When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy.”
― Jalaluddin Mevlana Rumi
I hit send.